-13.04.06-the morning was thoroughly spoilt by P! agn she bring her wadever shaw which she uses as table cloth and oso a stand for donno wad dumbo reason. and she tok bout name calling and rumour spreading and stuff which i guess kinda created some jokes ine between. less0ns were damn b0ring can, life in sec 4 is so miserable. aft sch had cheer leading agn. tiring as well~ went for a short SL meeting and went bck home. on way was so tired~ so slept. reached home did my homework and went 0ut to meet steph. came home ard 1o? lols. tired tired. juz watched meng pin tu. junyang's so bad! but i heard my sis saying kelly died in the end~ hais sad ending.
pr0blems pr0blems pr0blems! wen will all this end? im tired of all this crap and bullshit! everyday and everytime! pr0blems come in one aft an0ther. i wish everything is jus so perfect and i haf nth to worry or tink about . everyday i hafta wear a fake smile . and pretend everythings' fine . i hafta face everything as if im the strongest person in the world we can shoulder everything . deep down im feeling terrible . the feeling is like 0ne being blind and donno where he/she is heading. with nth to lean and hold on . my feelings are hurt . very deeply hurt . but i still hafta fake thru everyday. i hafta pretend everything's ok . and get on with life . im problmatic . and i haf enough troubles and i don wann no more . its better if i keep to myself. i don faking and i believe no one likes. i wann to realli happy everyday but i cant. somethings aint within my control. no one cares and understands. no one! even if how terrible i feel no one noes and can see thru! everything changed! i changed too. alot of things changed. sometimes i feel very very lonely . cos when i haf problems and i jus wann get a listening ear is so hard! tell mi wad should i do? kill myself? mayb thats a good choice. im at my wits end. i hafta fake!!!! i hafta ! and i hate it!!!!! yeahs i love and make fun of ppl so so much. i do get retribution. this is it! i don deserve anything from anyone. this is wad i get. this is wad it shld be. no one understand mi! no one can noe how i feel. cos everything changed!
&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.
disclaimer/counter here(:
LAYSS is my name.life won't be fun without my dear lovers, girl/guyfriends & everyone! someone who loves to go crazy with her gfs. who hopes to travel around the world and swim with the dolphins. she bears grudges though she knows its not good. being happy is wad she loves most. & of cause she loves to eat ! (:
i love the sun, the sea and the beach!
tanning sessions with gfs!
chilling out with big mama (:
im a shopaholic! i can shop for hrs
i LOVEEE to sleeeppp (:
all the bitter food & herbal teas
hate being disturbed when im sleeping =x
waiting for a very long time
hopes for world peace.well being of my loved ones.to see the real santa clus!to be able to swim with the dolphins and to see shooting stars =)
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