GLAMOUR QUEEN

HAPPY NEW YR EVERYONE !

im back ! jus came back not long ago . wooh , its jus 2 hrs and 1o mins aft 2oo5 ended . hmms 2oo5 ended meaning mani memories haf come to an end and now im starting a new chapter of my life . a brand new one i guess ? i hope no "diasters" befall on mi nor my love ones ! esp :family,lovers and close frens .

for 2oo5 i haf made it a nice one .
-getting into a new class
-making new frens
-being vice chair
-learn frm mistakes
-found out whos true to mi
-FOUND LOVERS !
-family war ended
-be stronger
-and of cos naughtier

well it has been a good yr and a bad yr for mi . all dis memories are kept in my heart forever ! and of cos i do love my darlings,lovers and 4f dis yr !lets all work hard for our o's ! chiong for it !

jus now went to boon lay to countdown . yeahs so met mun and we went down first . zhiling and lydia donno went whr . so we 2 went to eat mac . and later on eunice came ! saw junjie and frens . and oso jared ! dyed his hair somemore ! and den actually chang coming wif his gang but in dat end say not sure . so we asked him whether we can go wcc hse and den bbq together . so in dat end we went lo . yeahs and when we got dere . we went to find chien . she ws hm alone . we came to disrupt ! lols . and den ate some food and den sat ard . and did dat countdown ! very lame lor wif them . they not high at all ! nvm den . tym passes very fast and soon we all went hm . mun's mom came to fetch her and eunice's mom picked us up . and on dat way hm i was luffing mad wif her . lols.

so my last day of 2oo5 was well spend ? ya i guess . nites . im sleepy

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

hmms another 5 hrs and 1o mins ! and we'rer gonna be in dat world of 2006 !!!! wooh tym passes so fast and today is dat last day of 2oo5 ! hmms 2oo5 has mani beautiful as well as sad memories fer mi ! but i'll kip dat happy and beautiful ones while dat sad ones i jus smash them into pieces ! =)

hmms i slacked away 2 days at hm ! watching vcds agn . 2 days and i chiong finish 2o episode . hahas . ytd had tuition and got some of my maths sums done up ! jus hope dat sch reopen keng would check everything . and oso ruhua wont ask us fer everything too ! cos im intending to skip my jian bao .

2oo6-impt yr fer mi . o lvl ! so fast yeas . anyw in dat new yr i wann to study very hard and chiong my studies . and oso faster pass out of cca and den i'll be free ! yeahs i wann do well fer every tests dat i'll be taking and im gonna read more and brush up my eng in order to fulfil my dream of my MASS COM ! wells sc and stuff i wont care much . cos its dat last yr and i jus let it be . it aint gonna bother mi more . jus hope no more st john island camps ! hate it la . sick and tired of gg dere already . oso my lovers and mi would haf a smooth yr ahead and chiong our o's together . and hope dat smth will help my phys . =/

hmms well gonna go off to countdowm fer dat new yr ! its dat last day of 2oo5 ! so peeps enjoy urself tonight ! cos tmr will be 1/1/06 !!!!!! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

wooh tired tired~! went to east coast today . to celebrate my dearest and one and only JUN MEI MEI ! hahas my NIAO LEI mei mei ! love him lotsa . cos he's our DEAREST MEI MEI ! =) happy advanced birthday ! cos u're only gonna be 15 on der 31st of dec 2oo5 !

so met up wif lovers and we took dat train to bedok. was kinda fast ? dat uncle mayb drove fast today cos mayb he know im taking dat train . lols . buay bah ! den took bus frm bedok and dere hmms we tok bout mani things . dirty lil secrets of lovers ! u cant know ! hahas . den alighted and walk to east coast . my knee was hurting by then . been hurt fer weeks ! sad sad sad . went mac and had our lunch . by then weijun and chang were finding dat exact place . so aft we finished we went off to find them . actually was walking and suddenly one guy popped out . i thought he was a fren of any of us . but he asked U GUYS WANN RENT BIKES ? lols . we were like err ? den decided to rent it later . but when i called chang to ask him how long was dat walk to dat place den he say was one hr ! so we walked bck and rented bikes ! ride ride ride all dat way till dere and found them . but they told us dat thingy need to pay . lols . and its $12 fer 2 hrs. den we decided not to go and went to bedok jetty and took some pics before we met them at mac agn . sat dere and den decide whr to head . and lastly decided to head fer town . so went to bath and wah lau must pay 5o cents ! and yucks dat toilet was damn dirty and smelly ! 5o cents somemore ! den dat floor oso got so many sand ! and den i faster bath and aft we got ready we went to find them . took train to orchard

finally reached orchard ! walked ard far east . mun and eunice looking fer clips . and eunice's shoe was spoiled and chang was kinda enuff to lend his slipper to eunice and he wore his slip in . and at last she found her shoe and oso their clips . off we went to eat kfc ! inside kfc u can only hear our laughter and no one else ! we all mad . laughing at so mani jokes . den we went heeren fer neos . and i went hm while they went k . took bus hm and den went to clinic . doctor says my knee is minor stuff but must take care lo . went hm and watch tv and now online . tmr having tuition . wells wells . gonna rest !

hais blame it on me . im not taking gd care of my eyes. dis morning when i woke up it was real swollen and red ! and plus i rub in some more . so scary when i tink of dat now . so din wear contacts . and it was ok when i reach bedok and aft i put eye drop . I PROMISED I WONT RUB MY EYES AGN !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

hey hey . hahas . nw im at yee mun's hse ! lols . doing nth but updating my blog . while she's dere trying her trying her NEW pe shorts . lols . jus behind mi ! =) oh ya btw today the auntie selling pe shorts was f*uking attitude . she sucks man . saying i cant wear 34 cos its too small . but its stretchable ! and den say buy shorts no nid try . but if its too long hw we noe sia ! and den still say we take out the shorts and try den put bck make her things messed up ! hmphx . ink u are so great ! jus selling shorts ! . and oso a gossiper ! bleahs !got so fed up with the auntie ! yucks .

went sch fer sec 1 orientation meeting . bleahs it sucks ! cos we were practically slacking down dere . doing nth lo . and so boring somemore! and gave us some irriataing stuff tu do . wth . and the onli fun part was the STOMP part ! we were hitting drums and everything . hahas love it man . misses der st john island days . lols . we had some singing part . and everyone was so high . i guess it was fun too . and we went off shortly tu our games and den had so much fun thou my kneee cap still hurts . enjoyed it . and aft dat we were dismissed ! lols . but scs hafta remian behind but we ran away ! i mean some not all ! i got so high today by imitating sean frm sec 2 . he was realli *****.hahas .

mi,lydia and mun went jp . she went searching fer her clips and shirt . finally she found her shirt at 37 degrees . and den oso her clip . i bought an orange hairband . cool and i can wear it ! becos of my DA TOU everytime buy hairbands hafta buy those bigger ones . and gary lim hor . so lazy la . wann take present still wan slp . x) . end up nvr gif him agn . lols . mayb when dis sat ? lols . den went off . decided tu go mun hse cos im bored even if i go hm mahs . so jus go lo . den end up using com and seeing her pack her rm . now very clean huhs ? hahas she's having her bath time !hahas .

wooh tmr gg tu east coast !!!! excited man ! mus go and see wad tu wear lo . =)

`sometimes u don know wad u really wann in life . sometimes u lost ur sense of direction and don know whr to head . i guess i lost it . im lost terribly now . i do hate some things at the moment . hmms shall not say hate but im feeling depressed over some stuff . i tried to overcome it by not thinking . i run away frm it . i hide frm it . but the pain comes again . i do hate the feeling . im too tired to think anymore . i jus wann no more . hate me for all . ya its my fault . things aint gg to be bck anymore and of course i mus face bck to reality . im not feeling good inside . im jus pretending . actaully i hate pretendence but why must all dis shit come in a whole ? i don wann to break down anymore . i don wann to be said crybaby . i wan learn how to be strong . but i failed . LAYSS A FAILURE . sick and tired of everything . im going to breakdown soon~

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

FINALLY big day is over ! phew ! but oso no use left few days and sch's reopening lo . so not much tym left tu play i guess . wells my terrible life starts on 3rd jan 2oo6 ! toking bout 2oo6 i got mani wishes !

-i wan a brand new life
-excel in studies
-try tu pass all my tests
-concentrate more on geo
-family and frens all are well

yeahs dats all . i don wanna be greedy . jus all dis will do . hmms tym flies and nxt yr im in sec 4 . recalling when i was in sec 1 still tink haf a long way tu go . but nw no long way ! its gonna fast and faster! and den here i hafta take o lvls ! scary !!!

so BIG day is today . i woke up damn tired . din haf energy tu wake up but hafta drag myself up. wooh met eunice and went tu sch . saw peeps at round table and joined them . all studying and toking as well . den went in shortly at ard 8 . and mr tan was dere as usual so early ! waiting fer us . der feeling is so scary jus lyk gg tu some hell places . was kinda nervous too . so started doing . mark was nosiy la ! hahas . den some i did noe while some i was BLUR ! den mr tan left somewhr . and we started tu tok and discuss things . lol . wasnt lyk exams ! and we all discuss ans and stuff till he return during der last 25 mins . yeahs and den gave up der last qn and handed up and went off . took bus hm and went tu optician . waited long and went bck tu prepare and go agn . yeahs and dis tym round she said is my lens prob . eye is ok . finally ! and den went hm and wore a new pair . was feeling good . no irritation ! went tu mit eunice . and off tu mit der 3 lil pigs !

we weren't late ! and den eunice's shirt was nice ! lols . and den went off tu orchard straight . mich had a new name today ! called pony ! but we added on tu sot pony panties and bra ! lols . aint we kinda siao up dere . nah we are always lidat ! dats our style ! and so we called her pony all day ! she was realli sot la . whole day damn high . had lunch at cine . and den went heeren and took neos . den went tu far east and on the way i got damn serious tummy ache ! make mi feel lyk kena poisoned of smth ? yeahs and felt better whn i reach far east . so shopped ard and io bought a nnew ring ! fer 9.9o ! ex rit ? but nvm i love it . den went off tu ZARA ! tey loved it man . tried on clothes and i sit down dere waiting fer them . see fashion show . but mich look great in ZARA's clothes ! off we went tu bugis . mich left fer hm . sadly pony went off !!!! and we gave her a BIG hug ! =)

bugis was nth tu shop at all ! mun and eunice were finding clips . and i was finding new necklace . but village din haf any nice ones . and somemore i was so tired and my bag is aching my shoulder all becos of SOMEONE's present la ! in der end nvr collect ! and den went junction and ate mac . gf was so hungry . hahas . den went ard shop shop and bought my cat ring and necklace fer 16.9o ! cheap ehs . love dis cat ! MEOW ! hahas . we went off at 7 plus and den took train bck . was a fast ride and den went lot tu buy things and off i went hm . took a bathe and watch my fav show . den now blogging . tmr dere's sch stuff . till 6pm ! gonna die frm dat . =/

well today i and eunice got attached to one another on 27/12/05 at 3.25 and den we broke up on 27/12/05 at 3.26 ! lols . wad a joke . we stead fer 1 min . and she left mi . cos im shorter den her . lols . no la we are LOVERS ! no one can break us up k ! today met up wif lovers was indeed fun ! and nw im missing them . =p

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

hmms bangla sucks lyk hell . i heard mani stories frm gf when i came bck frm genting . and thou we haf those racial harmony of even sometimes tey haf programmes of those bangla hafta come s'pore tu work den very pitifull all dat . yeahs i agree but one thing i can be sure is tey are all PERVERTS ! c'mon man . if i happen tu be at orchard dat day i would haf grab any bangla's collar and sue him fer his despicable act ! in public ! and den he will be send bck tu his own country ! btw s'pore is not some kind of city wif prostitues okkies ! if u wan den go geylang . if don haf money den don ever tink of it . wth . hate them tu der core . and every bangla who walks pass mi i will stare hard at them . make sure tey are scare of mi ! fancy such things happen tu my frens when im away ! cant stand it . BANGLA SUCKS !

wells tmr is my BIG DAY ! i mean BIG . im gonna fight my way thru . thou in dere i noe i wont pass but i jus hafta try and fight my way thru . wif no tears ! i will make it . i musn't disappoint N and oso support frm my frens and peeps . i noe its tough but mayb dats god wans mi tu take as a test . cos nxt yr is my impt yr . i musn't fail anymore !

sometimes im drowned by my tinkings . and sometimes i found it hard tu breathe . but everything ended w/o a trace . and of cos i mus get bck on feet . cos my frens nid mi . and i mus be dere fer them . i nid tu be strong . i musn't lose out . and i'll prove tu them . i will make it one day . time is all i nid

take care peeps . =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

im back frm genting ! =) miss mi ? lols

MERRY XMAS !!!! HO HO HO !

23/12
set off tu genting in der noon . had my tuition in der morning . was damn tired and eyes were swollen . i din slp well last nite cos of smth . den we set off . not realli mani ppl went so der bus wasnt dat noisy . ya auntie came along and so der whole bus was filled wif my bro and jerry's voice ! yeahs studying on der bus and den slp . nth tu do at all ! was so bored la . took 7 hrs tu reach ! mom bought lotsa tibits ! eat till i scare liao . cos on der bus realli nth tu do . so we jus ate and slept . pig man ! fats popping out ! journey was long and curvy , lotsa slopes . and oso fog was thick so it was damn cold when we reached . took a long tym tu settle our rms . and den unpack and went fer dinner . wah . my dad's boss was rich ! he treated us tu a damn ex restaurant . food was nice but service was bad . and waitress wad rude . (i mean one of them) she carried der dishes tu our table and said EXCUSE MI very loudly . so jie and i all make faces at each other and stare at her . her supervisor saw and den scolded der waitress . =/ went tu walk ard aft dinner . yeahs tey played arcade and jie and i played DAYTONA . lols . and it was nice . so long din like dat ler . den mom and auntie went casino and we went bck tu rm . took them so long tu bath . and den put them tu slp . and we went tu slp . i got der whole bed tu myself ! wahahas .

24/12
wakie wakie ! took a long tym tu wake up cos very tired . mom woke us up at 9 cos we nid tu go down der lobby at 930 and den take car down tu KL . but yutd slept at 2 . so tired . cant tahan . kip yawning . down at lobby some things caught up . took a long tym tu settle . their service sucks . so rude ! and den took der curvy road and reach KL in an hr ! den went tu eat their famous ba ku teh . not nice . der herbs taste was tooo strong . i stil like s'pore one . and we went tu walk and find shopping malls . yeahs . but i cant see anything nice in dere . we jus walked ard . nth tu buy fer lovers lehs . wth . mayb we shldn't haf gone tu lot 10 ! sucks . and isetan was oso worst la . den went bck ard 4 . waited fer der driver damn long . got some mixed up . he drove us tu der cable car centre and we bought lotsa food . and snacks . and went tu take cable car . was so excitting in dere . everyone was so high . reach ler went fer dinner . den went tu take them tu arcade and mom and auntie went casino . had a hard tym taking care of them . den we bought kfc and went bck tu rm . had a "mini party" dere . everyone was so high ! and er jie was high too . jerry was worst . kept jumping bout . and sing nonsenses . den aft a game of black jack we went tu slp . slept at 12. early early . bro was so noisy in der midnight . cant slp well !

25/12
mom woke us up at 9 plus . and she even pulled der curtains tu make us wake up cos tey wanted tu eat dim sun . lols . den took a long tym tu wash up and den went tu eat . end up we and der kids ate mac . mom and auntie went fer dim sun . cos we were too hungry and mom and auntie din like mac so tey went fer dim sun . and den we went bck tu hotel and SLEEP ! till 11 plus dad called and we went down . off we went . on bus eat and eat and den study and slp . den i was so urgent den waited damn long and we reached der toilet . and den very fast reach custom . got some delay and den bus came and we were der last tu alight . yeahs . reach hm help mom unpack and den went tu mit emiko,tony and von . ate ljs . den took neo and walk ard . went hm . tony was nice enuff tu send us hm ! thx thx . tmr still got tuition . nites ! =)

nites =) SANTA CLUS IS COMING TU TOWN ! MAY DREAMS COME TRUE ! MERRY XMAS ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

todae's date wif gf aka my les was great ! we were damn high and making hell lotsa noises and laughter of urs can fill everywhr we walked . donno why oso we feel so damn high today . mayb dats shows we ARE a perfect couple ! =) don be jealous peeps . but i still love my LOVERS TOO ! i miss them terribly . cos i haven get tu see mun and fui2 so long ! wells wells . heard dat ? lets mit up soon gals ! =)

so we went xmas shopping today ! went orchard first but was raining . -_- . and den walk ard heeren . planning tu get smth frm flash and splash fer kd and den oso gf wanted tu get smth frm mini toons . so we walked ard heeren but din saw anything nice . and oso heeren damn small la so we din manage tu find any good stuff dere . went off tu cini . and den went in tu more than words . it was worst ! no realli worst jus dat din see any nice stuff dere . planning tu grab a bite in sub . but was plain lazy cos dere was a long quene ! went off tu cheers and eat BAO MIAN !!! yummy !! =) den went headed tu bugis straight .

walked tu somerset wif gf joking all dat way . we are mad today ! we tok almost bout everything . cos its been long since i mit her up . so we tok and tok . and make a joke outta someone . who was trying tu close one of her eyes and take a pic . but wasnt able tu do so . so der pic dat came out was damn bloody funny ! so we walk and tok and suddenly !

excuse mi , can i haf some of ur tym , we are playing a game and would like tu measure der lenght of ur skirt ! *shocked*

well i was their lucky star ! cos i got an exact length of 30 cm ? hahas and i guess tey were aiming fer dat length . before tey went off , tey shook hands wif mi and der caucasian joke wif gf and ask whr's her skirt cos she wore pants out today . lols wad a day !

hmms well i wonder is it so nice tu walk holding each othe's waist ? when der road is so packed and small ? lols . i wonder dat bout couples ! cos tey nvr seem tired of doing dat . and today i saw one live example ! =/

and headed tu village and dere dr traffic was slow ! cos dat lil gal was pressing and pressing der button continously . and benno once told mi every traffic light is der same . u jus nid tu press one and it comes very fast tu green man . while if u kip pressing it will be damn bloody long ! lols i even wan tu slap dat gal ! but nvm she's jus a kid . inside was packed wif ppl ! and im like sardine lidat ! walked ard and din find any nice clothes or stuff . so we went tu junction . and tu LOVELY LAND ! dats whr we got der big joke of der day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we got mad in dere !

and den went hm tu national library cos we haven been dere and den we like so excited . hahas taking der lift ! u will jus get der shock of ur life ! hahas and we wen up tu somewhr its so quiet and lols even haf securtiy guard abnd check bag ! came out and den went tu take lift ! and saw der sight . so decided tu go tu esplanade ! and den when taking der lift down i was so high till i knock myself . =/

walked a 2o min walk and being lead by der uncle who was nice enuff tu bring us dere . and den saw miss chen dere and den MEOW ! haha she bought so mani xmas gifts ! so rich huhs ? and den went tu esplanade wif them cos our sch performing dere . and den gf anf mi went tu library and den sit dere and listen some nice songs and went off .

saw meow and den we went off ! tiring ehs . and den took der train and saw one funny act by dis auntie ! lols .donno wad she doing oso . =)

bought emiko and yvonne's gift . left tony . and oso kd one bought ler ! lovers gonna get urs in KL ! await fer my return ! =)

i'll be back !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

thx thx tu all those peeps whp tag at my board and ask bout mi . peeps im alrite now ! BOUNCYlayss is back in action ! piang piang !!! hahas . see im realli normal and fine now . cos i n0e if der m0re she wants mi t0 give up and disappoint mi der m0re i shld don give up and jus carry on wif life . LALALA

todae was TIRING ! went tu buy bks . and bought my ZINCbag tu put everything inside ! so heavy !!!! and den went hm . all thx tu steph ! she acc mi tu go and buy books . hahas and i even wore sandals and go sch . lols . so went hm and den went out tu plaza tu eat and go library . hahas hardworking rit ? im a good student ~! =) and den ate japanese food . but halfway cant finish cos of my stomach hurting agn . couldn't slp well last nite due tu my stomach but now okkies ler ! DOUBLE okkies ! so went tu library and PAID ALL MY FINES ! finally . WOOyoo ! and den can borrow lotsa bks tu read . found catherine lim's bks . it was so nice . and i sat dere 1 hr and did my eng hw . and oso tu read der bks . wahh see layss is a hardworking chips ! hahas .

went in tu bowling and saw dat dere was a competition gg on but haven start . so nvm jus went off . and steph went tu search fer xmas gifts . its my turn tmr ~!

mani things tu buy fer ppl . hope dat tmr kd is free~ HAPPIhappi .

reach hm damn tired . im gg rest now . baibai !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

haf been pondering over some stuff and getting advices . and oso "conseulling" over and over . i guess msMEOW is rit i shld jus get bck wif life . no 2oo6 and is a new start fer mi . but tmr will be a NEW start ! im gonna get on wif life . starting wif my eng and chinese hw . and den set my goals fer nxt yr . and start a new life ! aft so mani "conseulling" i stood bck on my own feet agn . i won't be defeated dis tym round anymore . cos wadever it is its over between us . our frenship ends here . dis 2 days ii've been tinking and crying and worrying too much . even to der extend of oking my dreams and hitting my sis . lol . and now i shld jus get bck . be back der BOUCNY LAYSS !

yes i've been a fool . but it was all in der past . nw im jus gonna give s**t tu dis matter and go on wif life . in der end der person who lose out is U and not ME ! frm dis min onwards dis things ends . im not gonna give a s**t tu whether u gg on wif ur life . but im jus gonna do so .

wadever happy moments are over . BOUNCYlayss is back ! thx tu ZHANMING AND msMEOW!

changed a new blogskin and start a new life !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

booHOO back frm sh0pping ! had a great great tym sh0pping ~

wells went far east , heeren , shaw hse , bugis ! shopped all over der place ! mit yvonne at far east and mi and steph went off to far east first . damn suay day fer mi ! eyes haven recover , forget take money out . and den walked ard far east saw nth nice so went off tu heeren . took a damn long walk dere . so crowded thou its mon . bough ice cream~yummy . found my roxy bag . fer onli 7.90 ! damn happy and bought it . went off tu shaw hse and in to isetan ! got my slipper ! happy happy . and den went tu bugis ! set off tu bugis !!!!

damn hot la . cnt stand der heat . went village first . and den walk ard and saw no nice clothes . so decided to go catz apprarenl . bought 1 skirt frm dere . and den went to 2nd lvl . yvonne bought her hello kitty necklace . and i actually wanted tu buy mickey necklace but no nice ones . oh ya btw my laogong jay is so hot now !!!! everywhr we go in bugis we will hear his songs ! almost got 5-8 shops got his songs !!!! love him to bits and pieces ! and den bought a tube fer 19 bucks ! actually it was 22 . bargain till 19 . happy happy went off tu junction . saw one nice watch outside heeren and din buy cos i tot bugis would haf cheaper ones . but it was more ex ! bleahs ! din buy la . went ard walking and den too tired den went tu take mrt hm .

poor steph she stood der whole train journey frm bugis till je ! my my . mi and yvonne got seats but she has tu stand . sorry steph .

yeahs changed train and yvonne and steph sat together while i took der opp side . but der auntie beside steph noe we wanted tu sit together and she exchanged seats wif mi ! kinda lady . and some uncivilised ppl were making a hell lot of noise in der train ! cant be bothered anyway !

went to lot and had dinner at ljs . and saw EUNICE ROLL ! hahas my first tym seeing her ! and oso eyore . and we went off tu tony's hse ti visit BABY ! hehes ! so happy when i see baby . makes mi happy . and yvonne and steph were so scare of baby . he's so innocent . lol . love baby lotsa !

went hm shortly . tony went fer king kong movie at lot . he got 2 frees tic ! lol . and wad a gd fren he is nvr invite us . and mi and steph walked hm . shared mani of our lil dirty secrets . i felt better aft toking to her . she understands mi . 6 yrs of frenship wif her ! =)

`agn . im dead . ppl told mi wads der use and pt of crying over such person . when he/she nvr noe wad i did fer he/she . mani told mi tu carry on wif life and don break down agn . promised pig not tu break down but it seems lyk der promise wasnt kept . im so tired . i wanted tu be strong . and nvr give up . but nw im being forced tu . i don understand wads gg on now ! everything's a mess ! i hate wads rite in front of mi ! mayb we end here . im tired . i hafta pretend in front of my frens dat nth happens and im fine . i don wann any pretendence anymore . im tired . i don wann break down and let them worry . i guess i'll be fine . but im not sure when der wound will heal .

THX TU SOME PEEPS WHO STOOD BY DERE FER MI . ZHANMING , PIG , IRNI , MSmeow and MUN ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

for my 15yrs of life . frm once i got out of my mom's stomach till nw im here posting agn . i've nvr been cheated so badly . being cheated i can say NO ONE feels good at all . if anyone feels good being cheated step out rit now ! and yeahs i've been thru alot more den other ppl do . cos of who im so i've gone thru more than other ppl . i've been cheated before . but dis are all jus small stuff . and some frens stuff . and all dis onli happen when im in pri sch and ya over and first tym in my sec sch life dis happens .

i've told myself not to give up . i promise u . i told u . i swear . and wadever shit stuff . but end up now . i can say im being forced to do so . der once strong layss wasnt here anymore . SHE'S DEAD ! i say agn SHE'S DEAD ! she cant be strong anymore , giving advice to frens , staying dere fer them . she's not dat layss anymore . i noe i was a fool . u told mi not to set high hopes . im a fool ! im indeed one ! being played ard !!! u told me stuff and i believe u and in der end wad i get ? nth at all ! im A FOOL !

i treasured u so much . take u as a best fren so much . and wanted to do smth fer u . i guess dere's no such nid fer mi to do so . im giving up .

ONCE AGN LAYSS IS dead . DER LAYSS UR ONCE NOE WASNT HERE AND IS dead !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

santa i've been good and all i wan fer xmas is ..... dis is hot nw . everyone wants smth fer xmas . me too ! i hope i haf lotsa money and buy wad i wan , pass my o's , be hardworking , be slimer , grow taller ABIT , peace in country , wellness of my frens and family blah blah blah . so mani things and some can come true while some are impossible i guess . lol . *stop dreaming layss !* wake up ! =)

but recently lotsa of things happen . and sometimes i wish dat i could jus be in a dream and when i wake up all der bad ones are gone . cos dreams aint forever dere . tey will be broken once u open ur eyes frm ur slp . sometimes when things are gg bad fer me , i jus wish im in a dream . yeas in a dream . why ? cos den everything is not so real and true . and once i wake up everything will jus be a past . however in real world everything is real and so true . so true till der extend dat sometimes i cant believe and don wann believe . truth makes us suffer at tyms . but sometimes it gives us happiness . well well . here i go agn . =x

well

der day was average ! 5 upon 10 ! cos wasnt too bored nor hot . jus rit i guess ? i watched der modern version of jie da huan xi . hmms tey haf der old version rmb ya ? and nw changed tu modern one . kinda nice i can say . thou der storyline diff but love it too . spend der noon watching it . ended ard 2 plus . watch other channels . mom bought bro to swimming lessons . and i was supposed tu mit them later . so took my tym to prepare everything . got so fed up with sis's rm der air con ! drip a whole lot of water . and i hafta be der maid and help to clean up cos no one was at hm ! went to mit them and damnit i wasn't sure whether my ez link card stil haf any value . so i went to check it at der nearest lrt station . bloody long walk ! cos i din even haf a single cent wif mi . finally reached bus stop agn ! bus wasnt here ! 2 67 went by and finally 188 came ! on der way was raining hard . got dere and rain stopped . took cab wif mom and bro to boonlay to eat . had a yummylicious dinner . enjoyed der food . was damn nice ! and cheap ! went bck hm shortly .

charity show on ! din noe it until i on der tv . so watched it . guess it was ex fer der phone charges . der cheapest is 8 bucks and der other one is 38 bucks ! my gawd . tink rich ppl will be calling and calling . tey invited der president and his wife ! i guess tey don understand a single word . cos its all in chinese . wonder why tey invited them ? mayb respect ? ya shld be and must be . der performance by der 4 guys were gorgeous . all of them muscles everywhere ! and huang jun xiong was handsome !!!!!! he acted in some tv drama ages ago . but he's so handsome ! der one by kym ng and fren was not bad . i admire their patience and courage . and of cos their hardwork . =) overall 6/10 .

my eyes has been irritating me . cant stand it . so watery . water kip coming out . gonna rub and rub . once someone told me rubbing my eyes is bad fer eyesight . i guess der person shld noe who he/she is . well well i mus refrain myself frm rubbing too much ! don like it at all . my eyes will be spoilt one day .

january issue of teenage is out ! and guess wad peeps ? dere's dis huge poster of JAY CHOU ! i mean damn HUGE ! and can see those little pores of his on his face . and i pasted it in my rm near my table . took lotsa of pics wif jay . hahas im sick . fancy taking pic wif a guy in a poster ? lol . LAYSS MUST BE MAD ! anyw grab it while stock last ! =)

xmas is coming . booHOO . im in genting on der 23rd tu 25th ! carn enjoy counting down wif my frens on der 24th ! well well nvm den . shld be gg out on der 25th . and aft xmas dere comes my big day .

-BIG DAY-
worried fer my big day-27/12 . some of u may noe wad it is . i hope dat everything will go on smoothly . cos i've been down on luck . and mayb i'll fail ? who noes la . seriously i got confidence on der outside but in dere is 0% . shall bring my dear turtle BOOBOO on my BIG DAY ! hope BOOBOO pray fer mi . =) ppl kept telling me go fer it layss ! but i fear wad comes out or evern when it ends . i will end up like a water fountain . when sometimes i tried working hard but der outcomes doesnt go my way . i've no confidence of fighting . =(

recently i've been sleeping late . 2 or 3 plus den i'll go slp . sometimes when im bored jus play pool to kip mi accompany . yeahs and play till 3 plus and im still awake ! i mus start sleeping earli and so when it is der day before sch reopens i wont haf sleepless nites . but nvm i guess first day of sch i wont be in class sleeping . im out wif my sec 1 stuff .

oh ya shikin sms-ed mi today . asking mi whether i still wan to be sc . hmms toking bout sc . i shld realli reflect on things dis yr . i guess im not a good gal afterall . dis yr started with so many stuff . a new class . new tcher . new frens . and ya conflicts . and everything over . and yeahs dis is when i started to change alot in sch . i nvr seem to listen to her . cos i feel she's lyk a hippo . i start tu dislike her in many ways . but for studies i'll still listen cos i will nvr mix it wif personal feelings . we even din tok fer almost 2 days . i tok back to her . and to der extend she remove me frm my post . i noe its wad i shld deserve . cos i nvr realli respect her and tink deeply . i jus judge things on der surface . i created a mess . and one t helped mi . thx mR ! but some din trust me anymore . yeahs dis ia all i get cos i did somethings real wrong ! i regretted so much . well im a bad gurl -

yeahs but i too haf some happy tyms . dats when i found my TRUE frens . tey are real and TRUE to mi . i was so happy to found them . we shared many happy moments taking lotsa neos . buying bags,shoes,clothes and visit bugis everytym ! we helped each other and lead each other in tyms of need . we understand each other and dats why conflicts nvr broke out between us . EUNICE-YEEMUN-KOHWEI u guys rock my life . LOVERS 4 EVER ! no forgetting some peeps frm my class . mich,tiong,zhiling,naz,simi,shikin . tey are great too ! we are always frens ! =)

yeahs shall end now

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

yoohoo im here tu blog !

saturday agn ! and i din go out today! *cries* no one was free . all was booked . sadly i asked my frens later and den tey all booked . lovers are busy too . i miss them s much ! im gonna meet them up soon !

booHOO ! today stayed at hm der whole day ! hahas it was damn freaking sians and hot ! i slept till one today and den woke up continue wif my vcds and den chiong frm 1 plus till 8 plus jus nw ! hahas someday der tvee is gonna spoil by mi ! hahas . all i did was lie down at my sofa and watched vcds der whole day ! but it rained in der later part of der noon . and den i was so happy den cos i was feeling so damn hot ! and oso todae i ate ice cream !!!! hahas . excited .

nth fer today ! well see tmr den ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

sadsadSAD ! rainbow connection jus ended ! and der ending was so sad !!!! but i was expecting der other kind of ending whr yoyo will be wif jianyi and tey will be 2 famous dancers ! but in der end it wasnt wad i expected !!!!!! and der ending left mi wif a -? . but jian yi "went off" wif xiaoqian and oso yoyo went off tu states . tey din show dis part . tey jus show whr der 3 of them at airport and yoyo gave jian yi her medal and vice versa and den he went tu mit xiao qian and der 3 of them stood dere looking up and seeing dat yoyo had den become a famous world dancer . lol . but der octoko competition was nice and hw i wish one day i can take part . dis show left mi to wann take part in dancing . jeanntte aw was so gorgeouse in der show . of cos la she took part in ballet classes when she was young before ! and den whenever she dances in der show so damn elegant ! esp der part whr she wore der ballet dress . hahas aft dis show she's gonna be my idol !!!! lol . jus one show and makes mi ok so much and oso get so excited ! cant blame mi la . im jus dat . i get excited over shows . im gonna buy der soundtrack of dis show . =)

hothotHOT ! todae was damn hot ! nvr joke bout dis . i already adjusted my fan speed tu der highest but it seems tu be stil so hot ! nxt tym i mus haf air con in my hse everywhere ! so it was hot and sleepy . and i woke up at 11 plus . nth tu do . so jus watch tvee and eat my breakie . den mom came hm frm market . and den helped her wif some house chores . and den decided tu continue wif my VCDs . so watched frm 1 plus ill 8.30 jus nw ! gosh ! i watched 7 hrs of tvee non stop todae ! in between i did felt sleepy but wanted tu watch so din slp . and der ice cream man came so late today ! ard 4.45 . wondering whether tu buy not . in der end nvr cos ltr cant eat dinner . watch watch watch damn fast 8 .30 ler . den use com and wait fer my show ! ya and everything ended . lalala . wad a show . sighs . but overall i found wad i realli lyk aft dis show .

well well . recently i got stucked wif dis prob . sighs . sometimes i donno wad to do . i wanted tu help but she say i was not tinking . ya mayb uttering rubbish is dat part making her say im not tinking . but tsk tsk . layss chips are strong ! so she will make it . and of cos i will nvr gif up . even when u avoid mi la , nvr tok tu mi la , do wadever tu mi la . i'll nvr gif up . cos i noe u're someone who's worth it ! =) smiles and carry on wif life !

so lets see counting down

xmas-9 more dayss
re exams-11 dayss !
genting trip-1 more wk !

okkies okkies . anyw im pondering whether tu go fer zx's chalet on der 27th ! lol . my BIG BIG day . mayb i'll jus join them at evening tym ? ya and im not staying over dere . most of them i don noe . jus noe zx and zj . lols . well see ya .

im gg town on mon ! getting new yr clothes and xmas gifts ! ponders over wad tu gif my lovers ! i miss them terribly ! haven seen them fer DAMN long . shall go and meet them up on one of these dayss . but koh and fui2 busy working . nvm . will get tu see them b4 sch re open !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

jus finish watching rainbow connection . wah shuang shuang . im so excited now ! cos tmr is der last episode of rainbow connection ler ! im hoping and counting down tu watch der last part ! im sure it will be nice but oso haf dat unwillingly feeling . tsk tsk mixed feelings . =/

todae went tu sch fer sec one orientation der meeting . we are class facilitators . wooh wooh . im so excited . cos can make frens wif those sec ones coming in . im partnered wif lydia . hahas . she rebonded her hair and when she tye it up damn cute . hahas lyk xiao mei mei kind . ya and der meeting wasnt dat long but was FUNNY ! cos ah kiat kip making mistakes when he briefing us . hahas and den oso adding on tu zal's jokes . it was fast and funny . and den aft which we went tu lot and haf our lucnh at ljs . actually meeting up vonne but she ccant make it so went wif them . and den we shopped ard and bought mani clips ! CLIPPERS DAY !!!! lols . and den we took neos . hahas it came out tu be DAMN nice . ya shopped ard and found dat actually farhanna oso lyk mickey stufff !!! yeahs ! and we agreed tu buy der mickey and minnie towel ! its realli nice noeing someone who share der same interest as u do ! and we had lotsa fun in those shops . great day out wif them . and oso we are gg bck tu buy our things on der 20th! cool . yeahs . and mi and farhanna went tu tke bus while mun and dia took mrt . reach hm bath and watch tv . and fell aslp till 7 den wake up . tonight gonna watch vcds till late late lo !

wooh holi ending ler ! hais sians ! don wann ! i haven enjoy myself yet i don wann go sec 4! im scared of o lvl ! and oso re exams coming ler !!!!! 12 dayss tu re exam ! and so fast so fast!!!!

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

shag ! com sucks man ! or shld i say der internet ? lol . jus nw was typing my entry and den der internet jus gone lidat ! lol . i cant stand it la . ytd oso lidat . hai my dad der lappie oso ! starhub der yucks ! hahas . i've been rotting der whole day !

went tu lot and westmall wif mom and bro today . went westmall and bought my jacket . and oso i bought chicken little t shirt and oso my bro bought it too ! hahas 2 childish kids ! lols . and oso found my jacket ler . and oso went tu lot and bought my IP zone der shirt ler . lalala so happy . and den went hm and bought lotsa things tu eat . and den go hm slack and eat and watch VCDs ler ! shuang dao . wooh happy happy . and oso eat and eat tu forget smth . yeahs some pain i got ttoday .

rainbow connection is getting more and more exciting !!!! wooh no ones noes wad will happen tu xiao qian and yoyo . and oso thou yoyo is bad and der way she sees xiao qian looks evil . but she was forced into doing so . if she hadn't lose jian yi ind er first place she wouldn't haf resort tu dis . and oso dats why some guys are jerks ! hurting gals heart . w/o even noeing wad tey done is smtth dat cant be forgiven . let's see wad will happen tu jian yi and yoyo . excited !

`IM NOT GIVING UP!

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

RE PAINTING !

wooh wooh ! todae i had a BIG repaint in my hse ! hahas see my title fer TODAY oso noe liao . it was tiring ! and i mean DAMN tiring kind ! cos we hafta wait fer der painter ti finish everything and repacked and clean der WHOLE hse agn ! lyk srping cleaning lidat . wah tired tired ~ so much dust and some small holes haf some dead XIAO QIANG ! donno die dere fer how mani yrs liao !

so i had tuition in der morning . but i was too tired ! and din cant concentrate very well lor . and my eyes kip closing and so i told my tcher tu let mi haf 1/2 hr off earlier cos i really cant tahan liao ! ytd i slept at 4 ! din slp well ! and oso wasnt slpy !!!! and den rit aft tuition i went tu SLP ! my rm was packed wif stuff frm der living rm and so i went off tu sis der rmb and slp ! wah shuang slp till 1 siah and we both wake up ler . actually b4 dat mom came in and told us she bought us breakie ler but damn tired so i jus slp !

den eat breakie and watch ALOT LYK LOVE ! damn nice show ! thou its abit outdated but nvm la stil can watch . as wad mun said last tym ashton kutcher is realli HANDSOME ! hahas . and der main actress wasnt dat bad afterall . jus dat she smoked in der show and i hate gals who smoke ya . but nvm its jus A SHOW ! den lalala ice cream man came ! but its not der one we used tu buy frm last tym . but nvm cos its DAMN hot and i nid some cooling stuff . but it sucks la ! i regret buying ! yucks and nvr will i buy agn frm der person !

so we stayed in der kitchen practically der whole afternoon cos der WHOLE living rm was being in work ! so we had tu stay in der kitchen , and whenever we wann take smth frm der rm nid tu wear slipper and go rm . lol . cos der whole floor covered wif newspaper ! and oso some parts of der walls . lyk can read news as u walk . hahas . and der person went fer a 2hr lunch ! end up so late den come bck lor . and den so late den finish . somemore use my hse der bathrm . sian dao . and den finally tey went off !

and its our show ! and we had tu clean up der walls,floor and stuff . hafta vacuum,mop,clean der walls la . so mani things and den put der stuff bck tu der place ! and den do dis and dat ! wah siah so tiring and end up everything done ! was so relieve man ! and den go bath and mommy help mi cook noodles ! wah so good siah ! and mommy is buying der shirt at IP zone fer mi ! yeahs i love mommy !

todae DAMN tiring la ! anyw xmas is coming and oso im gg off tu genting oso ! hahas can shop till i drop ! hahas gonna buy mani mani mickey stuff ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

im back in action ! hahas .

here goes fer today !

woke up damn late . i slept at 1 plus ytd cos i couldnt slp and so i decided tu do some phys questions lor . and surprisely i manage tu solve it . tsk tsk . *claps fer layss* . see im not dat LAZY afterall ! hahas . and den aft doing i feel so sians and decided tu head fer lala land .

yeahs so today woke up ler , helped my mom wif HOUSEWORK agn ! donno how mani tyms dis wk liao lor . and everytym mus do and help her . cant blame it cos she's my mom . and so i cleaned up der walls of my rm today . and helped wif der vacuuming . and i went swimming today ! yeahs it was hot and SUNNY ! i love it ! and so went swimming ard 2 plus and all dat way till 4 plus . wooh hot hot . and den aft which went tu eat at lot wif emiko . yeahs finally i tasted der korean food ler ! okkies la not dat nice but overall still okkies lor . and so we went rotting at lot . till 7 plus den we went hm . oh ya today saw 3 ppl whom i rarely see ! and long wanted tu see ! wanjie,zhijie and jasmine . lols . hahas and wanjie was wif her mom and so we went over and said hi tu her . and chatted and went off .

jasmine realli changed . im not close wif her . jus dat she used tu be my sch mate . and wooh she changed her hairstyle and dyed her hair . ya and look more lian . mayb ? who noes . and oso ZHIJIE ! hahas dat person long tym nvr see him . guess he's stil out dere noeing more gals ? hahas and dat reaction we all had when we see each other was DAMN funny !

ya and so i went hm and was in tym tu catch "jue dui da wan jia" ! phews hengs ah ! watched der campus superstar part . wooh so mani twins down dere wor . and den some got in and some were out very sad . anyw dere was dis pair whr tey were out and der sis was blaming her sis fer not singing songs together at first . lols . and sogi was dere tu calm dem down and console them . anyw wads over is over so jus let go and carry on wif life . but i noe some ppl realli wann be superstar well mayb when older ? hahas . now study first .

i wann go esplanade and view der nite view ! hahas and tmr my hse re painting ! and guess wad ? my mom wants mi tu stay at hm ! lols . hahas she wants mi tu help out lor . nvm la . anyw mom's getting mi a jacket and 3 shirts frm IP zone ! i love her ! muacks !

nth fer today , bb ! and tmr well see ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

sundays are boring !bleahs and yucks ! i hate sundays!

ytd i slept at 1.30 lidat . wooh tired tired . was so bored and came online and chatted wif PIG till 1.30 and i went off . and thx tu wood fer teaching tu hw tu do maple stuff . thou in der end i still din get it . wahahas . but thx anyway . =)

so i woke up ard 11 todae . actualli wanted tu slp longer but was woken up by gf's msg . and so couldnt slp bck so i woke up lor . ya and slack agn at hm . and watch VCDS agn ! hahas im addicted tu my tvee ler ! everytym would watch VCDS or tvee ! *mus control myself ler !* and mom went out wif auntie and came hm ard 2.30 . so bro was getting ready tu go fer his swimming lessons . mom and his sis were all gg out together tu buy some stuff . so i had tu tke bro tu his swimming lessons . *he's beside mi rit nw !*

i realli cant stand kids ! hahas . tey are very IRRITATING ! and todae my IDIOTIC bro , wanted tu eat choco b4 we went out tu der pool . and i told him not tu eat cos ltr swimming will feel too full and vomit . and so he din listen and i scolded him and he cried ! wah paing makes mi headache la . and den he cry and cry and cry . NON STOP ! lyk those non stop songs ! hahas . and he called up my mom who was outside and he complained tu her and her din wann tu go swimming . den aft a while he cry finish , he wanted tu go ! lols . omg ! so troublesome rit ? tu haf a bro ! *he's reading wad i typed !* sheesh !

i brought him dere and msg emiko and met her at westmall . so aft my bro's swimming lessons started i went off tu mit emiko at westmall . and converse having LAST DAY of sales lehs ! and everything DAMN cheap and i saw a jacket . original price is 60 but nw selling at 30 ! half price ! but too bad la i din haf enuff money . so din buy lor . and went tu acc emiko tu haf her lunch . and den i went off tu fetch my bro . came bck jus in tym ! he was up frm der pool ! and aft he bathed and everything we went tu tke bus tu lot . DER BUS DAMN SLOW !

and went tu eat at MAC AGN ! mac agn ! and its NUGGETS agn ! pengs . everytym eat mac . and oso i din wan tu eat it was bro who wanted and no choice being a GOOD SIS i hafta go along wif him . and we left aft eating and walk ard and saw der OP shorts and SKIRT ! i wann~ and den went tu ICE LEMON TEE and bought my shorts ! hehes , actually buying der khaki colour but din haf L so i bought der black one instead ! *bro's luffing rit nw !* cos smth did happen in ICE LEMON TEE ! shhhh!!!!!

and den went hm aft dat . still did manage tu buy my pounch . and nw dere's no nice show . so i jus use der com and jus nw bro helped mi pull out some strand of WHITE HAIR ! omg im getting old~ hahas so if nxt tym i happen tu cant rmb who u r . don blame mi la cos im OLD LER ~ getting more white hair ! but some ppl say if u pluck one den it will grow 3 . but i don care la . jus hate WHITE HAIR ALOT !!!!!! yeahs and mom bought mi nice pumps ! can save my money ler . and oso recently i bought mani things . mom paid all ! lols . love her ~

anyw JIAN FEI DA JI HUA starts frm tmr~ swimming 5 laps ! jia you LAYSS ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

nw its 1.o3am in der morning . 11.12.05.

PIG is leaving in 2 dayss
XMAS is coming in 14 dayss
RE EXAMS is coming in 16 dayss
GOING OFF IN 12 dayss

im COUNTING DOWN . lalala . cos im bored here . and oso not mani ppl are online rit nw . so i jus post smth here ? hmms wonder if i ever live in western countries ?

it will be so cool ! and damn great ! and if xmas is coming
-wann my hse decorated
-eat turkey
-snow
-party in my hse !
-XMAS TREE !
-LOTSA xmas presents !

it will be so fun ! but im living in s'pore ! so i mus accept dat fact ! but its kinda fun la . cos on xmas i wann go town wif frens ! lets go wild and mad !!!! and oso i wann lotsa xmas gifts!

and oso i haven go and check out KD 'S WALLET ! i wann buy a nice nice one .
and i mus BUY A NICE NICE ONE FER PIG !
IM GONNA HAND MAKE SMTH FER LOVERS
wann buy one fer EMIKO !

im gg genting and so before i get bck i mus buy ler . and oso im gonna get smth frm genting fer lovers and KD ! AND pig ! impt ppl in my life !

nw i realise one thing . dat is everytime when smth happens i will tink of those ppl first . cos tey are IMPT ppl in my life !

SO SANTA my wish fer xmas is
to pray der best fer dis ppl !

lovers-cos tey stood by mi, nvr give up on mi,be wild and mad wif mi . and of cos i do love them . and when times are vad lets pull thru together ,. we will nvr be broken up by anyone ! MAY OUR FRENSHIP LAST ! *layss-fuifui-munzii-covalent bond*

KD-hmms *pray in silence fer kd* secret !

finally

PIG !-stands b mi oso . nvr fails tu cheer mi up of even touched mi sometimes ! and oso we are similar in mani ways and oso diff ! and SUPER is our word ! rmb 17 !* its a lucky no fer us ! =)

ending here- KD rocks !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

went shopping todae !

i got things sorted out todae . everything was so called settled . u might be wondering hw we settle it . world war 3 happen in my hse . yea and so i guess ur noe wad how we settle it . i guess everything is bck tu whr it shld be nw . and i hope things will improved and get better .

so i went shopping wif mom todae ! and my neighbour came along too . =) . before we went shopping , we went tu cut hair first . ya and actually it was my bro and mommy who is cutting but end up mommy insist on mi doing treatment . so i jus did as told . it wasnt as dry as before . kinda cheap and good oso . and we used up alot of tym dat we can used tu shop on hair ! lol and we went off tu OG ard 3 plus . by then i was so hungry . cos i din haf my breakie and i woke up late . so when we go dere we jus bought some small little snacks and off we go shopping ! went bugis village first and din see any nice and new stuff so we went off tu OG shortly .

in dere it was DAMN crowded ! everywhr was having sale and it was so packed wif ppl ! lol . and i manage tu squeeze my way thru . but i saw a pair of shorts but din haf my size so went off . and look ard and my neighbour was buying clothes fer her children . ya and i din buy any cos all wasnt suitable . jus look ard . but i manage tu buy 2 more sports bra ! one yellow and one black ! hahas . love it so muchies ! and den bought CHOCO PIE ! AND OSO BELGIUM CHOCOLATES ! hahas and went off aft 3-4 hrs of shopping and went tu eat .

so we had a hard tym deciding . cos der kids jus haf picky mouth ! and dis don wann dat don wann . so we jus told them tu make their choice . and so we went off tu eat at kallang dere . der NO SIGNBOARD restaurant . it was nice ! der crabs and prawns were damn fresh ! and i found out one thing . kids nowadays are so TROUBLESOME !

jus nw we ordered "tofu on hotpan" . and so normally we eat dis dish der tofu comes in circle shape and der kids love dis dish alot . and so of cos tey expect dat it will come in circle shape but when der cover lid was open it turned out dat der tofu was in square shape ! and my neighbour's kid was so picky and started tu throw tantrum . he cried when his mom scolded him . and make a big fuss down dere . so realli kids nowadats are so troublesome ! even if der tofu shape is not wad tey wann immediately tey don wann tu eat . so i guess kids are TOUGH AND DIFFICULT tu handle !

yup and so i ate alot jus nw ! its tym tu exercise ! i mus go swimming nxt wk ! mayb 3 days a wk ! i wann lose fats !!! mus work very hard tu lose fat ! =)

okkies well things on der inside are settled but somethings came out agn .

someone tried tu spike mi ? ya wif smth . and oso im gonna say : i guess its hard fer u tu change nw since ALOT of ppl hate u so much nw ! and of cos im one of them . wad u wrote ytd was realli pure FLIRTING ! i din do anything and offend u . but in turn i get dis kinda treatment . wadever it is . u're listed as one of der bitches in my list rit nw ! and oso i hate u ! u suck !

ya so xmas is coming in 15 dayss ! =)

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

i jus deleted der post i written jus nw . wasnt happy .

went out todae ! FINALLY ! i've been a good gal staying at hm dis few days ! i helped my mom wif her housework . and oso i did some holi hw . and oso i did study fer phys . but i stil suck in it . so nvm la . practise makes perfect ! i mus somehow practise more ! WAKE UP LAYSS ! NO MORE SLACKING ! anyw dad din allow mi tu stay in s'pore while tey go genting and he insist on mi gg . wth . i realli hate my life rit nw ! sucks . dis word simply describes how my life is rit nw . im being controlled . im 15 gg on 16 . and stil tey treat mi lyk a 3 yr old kid . tink im stil young and innocent and everything oso donno . but i DON ! I DON OK ! ur don trust , respect and give mi enough freedom . dats wad i hate bout ur ! everything starts becos of ur not giving mi enough freedom . i cnt stay out late ur wil tink im doing smth bad . hanging wif gangs . i cnt stay at hm alone . cos ur scare our hse will be robbed ! or smth wil happen tu mi . i rather stay in my house and study rather den go genting ! fancy telling mi tu tke my books dere and study ! no use la . might as well play and waste tym and in der end DROP PHYS LA ! ur look down on mi mahs . i cnt succeed in phys ! ya i cnt ! so wat ? im not A FAILURE stil ! *feelings shit tu der core !*

met up wif my best pals in my pri sch . tey are realli der best ! i stil love them stil ! and when being wif them i'll recalled wad we did in pri sch . alot of fun stuff and activities ! we love tu lyk dis idol or dat idol , chat together , go each other hse and eat maggie mee and stuff . i miss those days ! those days whr i don nid tu tink so much and i cn carry on wif my life as free as possible. not lyk now ! anyw ya we went causeway and acc steph tu get some stuff of her work things and we went off tu plaza . jus walk ard plaza and realise it has changed damn much ler ! not lyk der old one . but i find it kinda funny cos tey build cafe cartel down dere ! and so i was lyk dis kinda cafes shld be in town not here . lol . ya jus went ard looking fer my new costmetic pounch . but din find any so nvm . went tu eat at yoshinoya whr step works and we ate as we watch her work. hahas and i dirtied der whole floor . and sorry ya steph . din mean it anyway . den went off tu lot wif yvonne .

saw mun when i was on der bus and she's down at der bus stop . tink she waiting fer eunice . and went off tu lot . wanted tu buy some stuff end up nvr buy . so im gonna buy my shorts and smth tmr~ mayb i'll jus go lot alone and buy my stuff . ya loves shopping alone at tyms lyk dis . went off tu find mun and she was stil dere . she's so tanned now ! so nice can . ya den chatted all der way till 7 plus wif her and i went off and she went tu eunice hse . and reach hm watch tv till 10 and now im blogging . my mood is tu shit now ! don wann continue anymore . wann slp !

`im tired cos ur don understand mi at all ! ur find it weird why i don gif attitude tu my frens . der reason is simple . cos tey understand mi . tey understand who im and oso respect mi . but wad bout ur ? ur don trust mi and stuff . and dats why i oso in turn gained der trust and respect frm my frens . and dats why i treasure them so much and i of cos wont gif them attitude anyhow . when im wif them my worries all gone. i cn be who i wan tu be . i cn luff lyk mad and play lyk wild . but wif ur ? hass i guess it wont be der same . and everytime i go out wif them . when i mus rush hm tey will oso rush hm wif mi . i realli wann them tu stay longer and so tey cn enjoy themselves . but tey rush off together wif mi . and seeing them do so i feel guilty i feel dat why i cnt stay longer . anyway i realli do dislike der life im leading now . i wanna cry ! cry it all out at once ! =/

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

i jus found out dat der copycat is getting frm bad tu worst or shld i say worst tu worser ? i hate her ! dats my 3 words tu express how i tink bout her . cos she simply sucks ! why mus she over and over do dis kinda stuff ? will she be so happy and satisfied ?! i tink she must be nuts ! and she loves tu copy ppl so much den don wann ppl tu copy u ! hello i shld say u are a copy cat in der first place ! before u say ppl copy u ok! so pissed off rit now !

im getting pissed off wif so mani things ard mi !

things ard mi ! all getting so nuts ! copycats la , bitches la , backstabbers la , hypo la ! dad's forcing mi tu go genting when im not in der mood tu go ! i told him re exams are coming and are VERY impt tu mi . cos simply i sucks in phys and dats why i nid practise and tuitions and den xmas i can relax myself out ! and he doesn't understand ! I TOLD HIM LER ! and he insist mi in going cos he's jus scare if im alobe at hm smth bad will happen ! dats wad he tinks ! cant stay at chaalets ! and stuff cos he everytym so superstitious ! and i realli don wann go ! its not fun up dere ! cold and i don even wann play ! cos my mood sucks rit now and of cos till den it will stil be suck up !

i donno why . life's fer mi now is changing ! im stupid ! i admit im ! okkies and oso im lazy ! and everthing la ! i jus jate my life rit now !everything is changing ! and i don lyk der way it is now !

im having serious moodswings ! so better don provoke mi if possible !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

bro's sick ! and oso lover 2 !

hahas bro's down wif fever ! and means he cant mad wif mi,shout wif mi,let mi vent anger,let mi hit,let mi pinch,luff and dance and sing wif mi ! m i a bad sister ? pinch ? hit ? hahas we are always lidat at hm ! we can sing and shout very loud and mommy will always scold us . but dats our fav job tu do ! rmb when he and i was young i used tu play lotsa games . those teacher-students , cooking la etc .. those were der fun tyms we had ! and everytym we would end up quarreling ! and called it a day . or even don "fren" him . hahas . but sometimes he's a pain in der neck ! noisy and irritating and sickening ! sometimes when i bad mood still got disturb mi or irritate mi . and sometimes "tou chi" my food or tibits . but i stil love my bro ! <3

lover 2 is sick too ! she's down wif fever ! better get well soon and we hafta fetch our DEAREST LOVER 4 dis fri ! and haf our date on sat ! mus get well !!! faster faster ! lOve ya lotsa ! and thx fer der VCD once agn ! =)

hmms korea show agn ! weets ~ i love it so muchies 1 esp dis one which im watching rit now ! SANG DOO LETS GO SCH ! and dats rain inside ! eunice's hubby ! and oso a cute little gal named bao er ! and rain played as der father of bao er and tey are realli so loving and look so much lyk father and nu er ! funny show ! im gonna continue tmr~ lalala . aft dis show i wann watch tian guo der jia yi ! and love at havard ! so mani shows awaiting fer mi tu watch !!!! i mus chiong liao .

jus watched finish "wu chu cai hong" ! i watch ler so pek chek ! jianyi is such a HEARTBREAKER ! nw he changed totallie ! he's now confused over who tu choose . xiaoqian or yoyo ! and now somemore tong ju wif xiao qian ! i mean is she very good ?! i don tink so i tink she's so hao lian ! argh i hate it ! and nw thier r/s is lyk so ..... i mus watch !!! hahas im too excited over tv shows ! dats why i love acting so much too ! mayb nxt tym i join mediacorp ? siao ! nah nah nah !

guys are realli heartless at tyms ! at der start of ur r/s will be so damn nice and swit tu u . buy mani things fer u and say so much swit stuff tu u . (im not saying anyone) . and onli some guys are lidat . and when break treat u damn cold or wadever crap la . i hate dis type of guys ! tey are cowards more than a real man ! yucks i despse ur !

so i slack der whole day at hm todae ! i watch SANG DOO LETS GO SCH ! whole day ! slack slack and SLACK ! wah but its good staying at hm . so nice . doing nth but slack . holi hw are all over de place . in no mood tu do la . so sian . jus wann slack more . tmr's having tuition agn ! sian !

gonna go lala land liao ! nites !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

picture 1 : dats whr we are at ! an unknown bus stop !
picture 2: my good hair day ! see my brown hair ( i din dye) .
picture 3: my spastic face wif NO SKILLS ! dats why it looks weird !
picture 4: we decided tu haf funny faces ! and here comes my xzz face !!!!
picture 5: SEE MY BIGG MOUTH ?! A FLY CAN FLY IN ! dats how shocked we are !
picture 6: dats us ! der lovers . and lovers forever !
picture 7: dats how angry we look !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

went out agn todae . :)

i had a great "harvest" todae ! thou i promise someone i wont spend money but window shopping i end up buying a few stuff and were kinda cheap . promised PIG not tu spend money but i stil spend . sorry PIG ! i'll control myself frm spending agn nxt tym . =/ .

i went queensway wif eunice earlier . we intend tu shop ard fer her cousin's b'dae gift . wnd up we din saw any nice stuff dere but i bought my shorts . fer 15 bucks yeah ? cheap cheap cheap ! and i had MAC agn fer lunch todae ! im gg nuts wif MAC ard mi fer lunch and dinner fer der past few days . i shall refrain frm eatin mac fer dis wk . yeahs and we went off shortly aft i bought my shorts . went tu der usual bus-stop . standing down "sun tanning" agn ! freaking hot la . was sweating all over . and we waited fer so mani buses and see which bus is gg bugis . end up we hafta tke der 100 which is on der opp side ! and we climbed der freaking stairs ! it was a long journey tu beach rd . we alight near esplanade and change bus tu get down tu bugis . and walk tu parco ! lol ! u might be wondering why not tak cabbie or mrt tu make our life easier . but its so hot dat we cant stand it !

went ard parco and din see any nice clothes at all . kinda boring and was itching tu get tu village as soon as lover 3 came . but she wan damn slow . cant say she is slow but der mrt is slow ! and we went village first and look fer b'dae gifts . butt din found any . went up and oso din see any nice ones . and i finally got my mickey bag . fer 15 bucks yeahs ? 15 agn ! haas im so fated wif 15 todae ! and den went ard and finally lover 3 came ! we went ard and saw no bags . and went catz apparen and saw a nice half jacket ! so i bought it fer 17 bucks . i love it so much ! and finally lover 3 bought her bag and eunice bought a skirt and a shirt fer her cousin . so nice of her . =) and we went tu tke mrt hm . on der way was so sleepy and lover 3 did smth real funny !

went lot and check out some stuff . and bought bb tea and went off . its damn tiring todae ! im feeling so tired now . im not gonna go out tmr . staying at hm and watch vcds ? yeahs . and slack ard . IM MISSING LOVER 4 AKA MUN ZI ! be back fast !

so i cn sae todae bought kinda alot of stuff and oso got at cheap prices !

but der auntie who sold mi der bag was damn idiotic ! i was lyk asking her how much she can give apart frm der original price . i was purely asking onli ! and den when i receive lover 3 msg i told der auntie i'll come agn and see if lover 3 wann buy . and she say i ask her bout der pricing ler and MUS buy ! wth ! i was so disatisfied man ! i realli wann slap her face and walk off . i mean i was asking fer der price not saying i wann tu buy ! i nvr wann tu mit dis kinda sellers agn !

im damn tired now . gonna rest .

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

i mus post agn !

i jus finish watching "wu chu cai hong " and wth ! xiaoqian dat grp won ! it s sickening! i hate it ! i mean why ?! der jianyi dance so well oso . why mus let der other pair win ! and oso yoyo hurt her leg fer der competition ! argh !!!! and den der jianyi ! qian bian guy ! wif der xiaoqian ! idiotic gal la . dis kinda show see liao very xin gu lehs . wa my jian yi and yoyo !shitshit shit ! i guess im too worked up bout der show . but der show is damn nice lors .

ok ok i mus relax

mus do yoga !

using my leg and curl myself up into a fishball .

im now stuck up wif phys hw agn ! it sucks terribly . i jus don understand wad der hell der question is toking bout and dis is driving mi crazy ! driving mi nuts ! re exams are jus coming in 22 days ! and im down here as slow as a snail . learning things frm start . doing questions and seeing lotsa questions aft questions ! i hate it . i don wann phys ! i hate it ! but wad tu do i stil hafta take it . hai holi aint lyk one ! first 3 wks lessons , den lotsa holi assignment , chinese,eng,maths,chem and now re exams ! sec 4 life i noe its gonna be tough ! sucks la . everything sucks . my mood sucks too !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

`our frenship will nvr be broken uo by small stuff . dis frenship
will go on and on till eternity . <3>

todae was a great dae out wif my gf !

now den i realised somethimes we cant take things fer granted . its beens such a long tym since i went out wif my gf . i used tu rmb when we are in sec 1 whr we are young and innocent . =/. ya and we are realli lyk twins den . we love tu buy der same things . lyk clothes,bags,shoes etc . haas we are damn great frens . ya and every sat we almost spend der day together . but in sec 2 we started tu quarrel,haf conflicts and stuff . so we strained alot . she had her own frens and mi too . we din cared much bout each other's life . and we din tok alot . jus normal classmates . but turn out when we are in sec 3 . we got back together . ya cos we did cip together and so its lyk we went out aft cip wif der others and oso we got tu noe mun and fui2 . ya den we had our lovers gang . till now every piece of memory i had wif my gf are so swit . i'll nvr forget them even if i leave wwss nxt yr .

dis shows how much i love my life rite now wif all my lovers and frens ard mi ! =)

i went queensway todae ! i bought one shorts fer 10 bucks ! cheap yeah ? and oso i aim fer dis skirt which is lyk 15 bucks ? so damn cheap ! yeahs and we saw lotsa nike,addidas stuff man ! but all were so damn ex ! and so we din manage tu afford any . so we out and wondering whr tu go nxt . wif mi wearing my ripcurl shorts and tee we couldn't go town . but aft much thoughts i jus heck care and went town . we checked out any new stuff at robinsons . but din see any so we went tu wisa ma der isetan . and din see anythings on sales . so went tu lido der isetan and sen sports bra on sales ! and so i bought two ! and oso i saw one nike sleeveless ! fer 23 bucks ! im gonna get it tmr ! and oso one addidas shirt fer 29 ! omg ! dats damn cheap . im gonna get it soon. yeahs and oso my dear havanas sandal . went off shortly aft we bought . ook 190 hm . and tata here im updating my blog . tmr gg out agn wif lover2 and 3 ! MUN WE MISS U ! ENJOY UR CAMP ! smoochies ! =)

yeahs and oso i did treatment todae . my hair's getting dry so i mus take care of it . yeahs .

go tu go anf do my work liao .tata

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

star awards jus finished ! now tey having der "celebration party"

hmms dis yr kinda satisfied wif the results . haas do i sound lyk im der judge ? lol . wow i realli admire those clebrity lehs . tey haf such nice figure and everything ! i love `ou xuan's smile and her complexion ! `michelle xie's shoulders ! i love their gowns so much ! its damn nice and of cos damn ex too ! der most funny part was fann wong and christopher lee ! hahas tey are a couple and so ppl kept teasing them esp:zoe tay ! haas . fann wong's dressing was unique ! and christopher lee was damn shuai ! wa `mei nu and jun nan ! `fann wong and christopher lee ! and now it realli shows u hafta make alot of effort tu become a good actor/actress !

2nd day im torned apart ! i cant stand her sickening attitude and her poke into everything attitude . i noe u are trying tu be a good "S" but jus dat u are over ! over ! im not a kid anymore and i noe wads right and wrong fer mi ! so i don nid u tu interfere ! seriously saying ppl say we look alike . but no use we don get along well . i admire those sisters who are so close . and frm young i wished fer dat tu happen but it doesn't seems tu happen . u nid tu understand . im not someone whom u can judge by my looks,behaviour,dressing or wad so ever . im someone u nid tu take alot tym tu discover my true self . my funny part and everything ! but u jus don . `t0rned ! once agn i broke down todae .

i happen tu on my scv and saw tian guo der jia yi . omg it was damn nice . i saw mun's lg in it ! overall kinda nice ! i mus borrow frm eunice soon and watch it . den after which i saw love at havard kinda don suit mi . but im still gonna watch cos i jus watch a small tiny part . der most i wann tu watch is der other show by rain ! i heard how interesting der show is by koh and eunice . sooo mani shows tu watch and no tym tu study and do hw ! shit !

todae i slacked der whole day ! i woke up kinda earli . nth tu do i jus watch those kid shows ! lol . and went tu watch scv and stuff . and it was so hot and makes mi slpy and i went fer my nap . so shuang when i woke up and i started tu prepare and bath and go out and mit my mom . we went jp tu eat swensen(fer er jioe b'dae) and kinda full till now . saw jingyi she working dere . hmm but she ddin see mi . and den we went ntuc and did some grocery and PMS CRAMP ! fck mans . damn pain dats how tough women how . so men u mus be very nice tu us women ok! i mean ladies and gentlemen ! ya and went hm by cab and watch tv till now . still watching . tmr's gonna go out wif kohwei ! lalala . our date out tu buy things ~

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

im truly touched by wad "k" told mi in der blog . i read and cried . i noe as a fren . u are concerned and wann noe . and thx so much fer cheering mi up wif those riddles ! i realli appreciate . u were down fer mi twice . thx fer being dere fer mi . ya i nid tym tu pick myself up agn . i will not give up on myself since u as a fren haven . i'll be fine aft some time . now den i noe i realli meant alot tu u . im so glad and u oso meant alot tu mi and i promise i'll be fine . i jus nid tym . thx so much !

and as fer my lil didi . u're der first one tu ask mi wad happen . i poured out everything and im so touched wad u said . and of cos aft i poured out everything im feeling better now . ya i broke down and im kinda fine now . u believe mi and told mi lotsa things and i will tink everything thru . u're always my lil didi ! being dere fer mi . thou things are past but i noe u will always stand by mi . im glad tu haf u as my lil didi . u understand mi too . u noe how i tink . thx so much !

fer eunice my lover . i noe lovers will always stand by mi . i noe ur always will . and i promise i wont breakdown agn . thx fer asking . im realli glad tu haf u dere when im realli down . i can say ur jus der best lovers in der world ! love ya guys !

im glad tu those who stood by mi . thx a million !

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.