GLAMOUR QUEEN

booo! meeting mummy later to go bugis =D
its been ages since i went there
hope to enjoy myself (:
back to blogging later !

sometimes i really loved to be perfect
but i know its impossible

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sorry dear for not being able to make u happy most of the time. for most of the quarrels we had so far, i admit i was really dumd and childish. i knew that time and time again you forgave me. im sorry for being such a lousy and petty gf. i hope everyday will be like ytd where you will hug me ard ur arms and whisper those words "i love you" (:

pictures for ytd's steamboat (: sadly i din managed to take alot of pics and can only proudly present one group photo

haf you ever really love & lost somebody
wishing there was a chance to say im sorry

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the steamboat last night was greattt. i enjoyed myself with dear and the rest alot. (:

they had the things bought. so when they reached, we went preparing the food and all. after much preparation, its time to start! (: everyone was so high and were talking on th top of their voice. LMAO. it was really fun. after eating so much, we were really full. so vien and ah min entertained us by their funny actions. it was really very funny. i almost die of laughter.

cleared up time! everything was cleared in 15mins time. then we went to take grp photo. and aft which we surprised dear with her fruit cake. she pretended to her surprised LMAO. after cutting cake, they played ard with th cake and i got some as well on my face. how unlucky. then went to wash up and stuff and some of them left.

the rest of us stayed back in dear's room and played mahjong and slack. they had such a fun time laughing at some people's friendster. LOL. glad that dear enjoyed herself and loveee the present i gave her (: really love that moment so much. cause dear kept on hugging me th way i really loved to be hugged ((: they left at 1 plus and left with me and dear.

both of us were so tired and fell asleep at 2.

a great birthday party and everything went on so fine(: thanks to vivien they all for buying the groceries, chienying for buying the fruit cake. thanks for those who were here. im so glad that dear said that this yr was the yr she had her birthday celebrated so happily. i loveee you! (:

*but somehow today i made dear angry. things happened all because of me. i suck =(

toodles people
in no mood right now =(

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alright im fine after a night's sleeep (:

watched gong for the whole day alr. LMAO. it was superb sad can! hahas and i went tearing cause i really cant take it anymore. reminds me of someone. mom and me had a tiff ytd nite due to some probs.

sorry mom. its not that i don't wanna let you guys know anything. its just that i don't want ur to know also. since its my personal problem i will try and settle it myself. you said you seen me crying every night over the phone and then you cared about me. but then i really don't wan to say wads happening. i will be strong and deal with it. i know you care for me, just that everytime i make you angry, sad and heartbroken. im so sorry. i just hope things between us will be fine.

everything went th wrong way ytd. im fucking sad. it seems like we do haf alot of unsolved problems between us. it takes 2 hands to clap. if we both also don stand behind one step, i guess we'll forever not solve anything. i just need you to be patient and more understanding. im not asking for a 100% you. i know myself too. for mine, i will try to change for th better. i really hope there will be some day we won't quarrel anymore =(

there's steamboat tonight at dear's hse. hee and im so excited. we'll gonna haf lotsa fun later. im so hungry alr. im staying over for th night as well. hope dear like wad im giving her. (:

toodles people!
update later <3

*sometimes i just need you to be a lil of this and that (:

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alright im sick! booo!

i hate to be sick! cause i cant eat everything that i want to! =( hope i can recover fast and get back to work soon (: argh~ the feeling of being sick is very terrible. don't haf strength to do anything. &&& i feel like vomitting. feel so weak everywhere. =(((

i went this morning. took the bus with ling and i guess my sighness came again. then i went sneezing non stop on th bus. ling was even asking me whether im ok. lol. thanks girl (: well, we were late due to the traffic jam on th way. and josephine was th one who opened the door today! god damn it. & i knew things were going to happen very soon if she's here.

so we went cleaning the shelves and mirrors and glass. she went ard inspecting for sure( her fav job). so happened that she called me and complained saying that th glass are not cleaned yet and i hafta wipe the floors where the models are being placed. i was like "wth, did u jus asked me to clean that?" seriously for all the housekeeping, we haf nvr really clean in this manner and i guess everyone in th shop was so irritated by her fussy-ness. she kept on picking on everyone so tell me who can stand her?! LOL.

worked all th way till 3 and i cant tahan anymore. was too sick and requested to leave early. they allow me to. but eleen talk to me bout my health. guess if im falling sick more, than im gonna resign i guess. working hrs are killing me and mom's complaining as well. but if i dun work means no money! i need money to buy CNY clothes, shoes, accesories, make-up etc etc.

i screw things up again. hai =(
toodles people <3

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things for stuck up again. =(
im sorry

& i cry to myself
toodles people

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things got stuck up once again. im sorry =(

i don't know why either. everything seems to be my fault again. for the harsh words i've mentioned, im sorry. i din wan things to turn out this way either. you need alot of time to recover and i promise you, i will always be there with you through everything. sorry for hurting you so much. maybe all along was all my fault. im changing for the better now. i hope its not too late. sorry for everything. just hope nothing bad happens again. i wan u to haf a nice friday and saturday (:

i cry to myself
toodles people!

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gawddd.
finally im meeting up mummy tmrrrr x)
hoho, i misss her like crazy la (:

hello! i did nth at all today at home! muwahaha. its so nice to be watching vcds all day (: but then good days will be over soon. the horrifying day will come soon. which means im getting my results soon la. i don't even dare to think cause i have no confidence in doing well :x & i don wan to disappoint mom too. may god bless me (:

i cleared up all my junk n my cupboard alr. the feeling is damn shiok. everything is dust free! hehe. new yr is just next mth! im so excited cause i will be meeting all my cousins, friends and everyone! then i gain a few pounds cause i will keep on eating. :x

anyw the above pics are all my colleagues! and they are the crazy bunch and wild ones. i loveeee you guys (:

toodles people!
baby jia you in ur hw ok? <3

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everything is back to the normal (: thanks dearest!

this few days have been really hard on me and dear. we both were going thru the hardest part of our r/s. glad that we pulled thru and thou at times we both wanted to let go but we still din (: loveeee you dear!

omg! i actually ate so much this few days! i cant believe that im eating mac almost everyday la! so tempted by their potato wedges. haha and i simply cant resist! i had mac for lunch ytd noon and at night, mom packed chicken wings back for us! & i cant resist the temptation so i ate one. and after which i had small lil bars of time out and mars. fucking fat can. =x alright time for some diet alr!

my knee is getting better i guess? doctor says i need to rest well and not strain too much. i also need to take in food which has high in calcium to bulid up my knee. but i cant stand for too long if not i will suffer knee pain again! =x today i wasted one whole morning to go for the x-ray thingy and turned out everything was fine (: but i could haf used the while morning for my beauty slp.

anyw im watching gong again! kaos, its so damn nice and it keeps me watching moreee and moreeee x)

im returning back to work on wed. and no moreee time to watch my gong. but im getting my pay on thur!!!! which means shopping spree. and mom agreed to sponser me money for my CNY clothings and stuff. so damn happy! i lovee you, mom! plus hula & co jus rang me up to call me to go down for interview tmr at 1pm. im pondering whether i shld quit GAP or still stay on =S
cause working in GAP is really stressful. plus my knee isnt that good. maybe i'll jus head for hula&co if im hired. but i will miss alll my colleagues! =(

i shall see how bout it
dear is having her netball match today
i loveee you, dear. all the way (:

toodles people!
i loveee dear and my life now!

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

i had a fun day with dearest, xiaoyin, vivien, peggy, cindy and qianying! (:

went off to meet dearest aft her netball and we went her hse. she showered and got prepared while i waited for her. then we went jurong point to meet the rest. on th way, me and dearest had a little conflict but was resolved (: im sorry =( we headed to take th train next to sentosa for photo-taking. the train ride was long and i had a small tiff with dearest again. i was really sad bout it and i texted michy and we had a talk. im so glad i felt better (: thanks dear! dearest came over and appologised and of course not to make things worst, i patch up with her.

we took the monorail express to sentosa. and damn those banglas they are really arse! they can be so sua-ku to not even alight and keep on sitting in the train and take pictures. kaos ehs! went siloso and omg the place changed so much! the beach was so damn fucking nice, i swear! and i loveee the beach loads and trucks! shall call people for tanning soon. tanning anyone? i wanna go siloso!!!! =DDDD but the RAIN spoil everything and got us drenched! omg, we were so sad and we went back to vivo city for window shopping. freezing cold la :x

walked ard, well nth much la. and then walk all the way till habourfront centre when they still thought its vivo la! LOL -.- qianying came and find us after her stuff and we walked and walked and walked. bought lots of stuff to eat and we went to the sky garden! they got themselves so wet and they took a longg time to dry themselves while me and dearest went to Daiso to walk ard. then we headed to cab to dearest hse. (:

had the forever so nice cupe noodles (: *yummy* its been sooo long since we all gather and eat cup noodles. hahas. well, im gonna ton at dearest hse next sat and sun!!!! so anticipating for it =DDDD

i missss all my colleagues! haven been going work for like 3-4 days? on mc lor, hahas cause of my damn kneee. i miss u guys all! i'll be back soon alright? *misses* =)

alright im so happy (:
and i hope everything will be th same forever
i loveeee dearest! =D

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

i love you (: #89

i remember when we first know each other. the first msn conversation we had was really nice and fun. then we got each other's number and we began to text each other. we started to wave madly at each other when we see each other in school. *i miss doing that* and then i was then your "dearest" and you were mine "dearest" too. everyone thot we were tgt but then we weren't but thats how our story started out (: i remember our first chat on phone, we were really asking each other funny questions and our highest record was 7am in the morning! our story finally started out on 22nd may'06 on the very day of my best gf b'dae (:

our r/s by then was known by our friends and your friends. every sat after your netball, you will always meet me and we will go for movie or head to your house. we made our very first ring. every lil thing of ours was just so sweet. and i enjoyed every moment with you alot. no matter we go your house or movie or even a short lunch. i still rmb our swensen trip, we had so much fun and i got myself very full! by then we had our lil diary where we keep our daily events and we hand over to each other every 2 weeks. i lovee the diary (:

although we started to quarrel alot, but i really love you. i've nvr thot of letting you cause i love you alot. we did silly things and we teared alot for each other. but then deep down we know that we love each other alot. honestly i've nvr wanna end our story since the day we started. cause i've nvr love someone so much before. i just wanna do everything with you. and everytime i tear, u will always hug me tight and dry my tears for me. and you will always remind me nvr to rub my eyes. i love all your hugs. cause when you hug me, i feel loved (: *quarrels are just small things that will bring us closer, and everytime when we quarrel i feel so pain inside. and everytime those harsh words that come outta mouth, i really nvr meant it and i hope you don take it to heart *

we had our first breakup. i was really upset and i really teared alot. cause i din wan to let u go but since u suggested for us to be better, i'll go by it. &&& i told myself i will still love you. maybe it will be better and i will always wait for you. we broke up for ard 1mth and we had our patch back. but then things werent very good. our quarrels came in more and more. we teared more. and school started for you and you were having your very impt yr.

jaslyn, everything i've typed here is for you. im sorry for being such a stubborn ass in the past, and i i've learnt alot. and i will change for your sake cos i really love you alot. i know you've been stressed out by schoolwork and everything. im sorry. i really don wan us to end and don wan our story to end. cause when i see being sad, my heart is in pain. i love you with no regrets (:

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went back to wwss today. i really miss school and all my gfs alot!

people were like staring at me and qianying like we were some weirdo in school. and i saw the sec ones. they look so pesky! and i saw juliana (: and michy baby! i miss the both of them! we went "touring" ard the school. wanted to find miss sim but she wasnt in la, she went for lunch and so we went other places to tour. i also saw mr sexy! =D then went to sit down in the canteen and i saw MISS SIM! run to her like mad and we went talking away (: miss her so much!

everything in the school reminds me of my life is school last time! i really miss the times we had together. if we have cca fair, we'll all be so mad and run ard, taking other's cca brochures and stuff. then we'll just keep shouting and snatching the sec ones! wahaha and its like so fun. we'll be the most bitchest gang making so much noise and having so much fun at the same time. and when its time to pack up, everyone runs away! =D

i saw shikin! she hugged me so tight! *chill out at holland v soon ok?* i love shikin! &&& and i saw my lil boy, elton. still as small as ever! and i gave him 1/2 a hug so tightly. even qianying agrees that he is cute! (: then we went off kinda early cause qianying had smth on, and i went home to slp (:

3 more days to the 22nd (: i miss times we had tgt. i miss all your hugs and when you say "i love you". i miss you alot. when will you be back? ='(

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

godddd
i was woken up by the pain in my knee
i couldn't take it anymore and went crying
i was so worried smth bad will happen =(

after awhile the pain went off i managed to go back to slp. but mom came in and woek me up for work and the pain comes again till i cant walk. so mom decided to bring me to the doctor's. waited damn long and by the time the pain has subsided. but then came back again. went home, took my medicine and slept till 3plus. i rang mummy up and went out to meet her since my knee is better (=

it'll always be till the end (=
toodles <3

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just got home not long ago, i finished work very early today. so i decided to head home cause im working full shift tmr! =( i hope ling comes back tmr so i can go home with her, if not i'll be alone :(

work was tiring. i din slp well last night. so i ended up waking up late again. and i rushed and managed to chase for my bus which is so auntie. lol. i wasnt late. *phew. xinren was even later and i even helped him to punch in. :x if im found out doing this, im gonna be so dead. i ate alot in the morning. had gultinous rice&small bao, den nasi lemak. den lucnh i ate even more! cup noodles, nasi lemak, chicken wing and bread. i couldn't resist my temptation la! and break today was only 45mins :( im really getting fatter and fatter. boooo! gym anyone?

feeling down again. last night had a breakdown. don't know why also. maybe i missed them too much. and i feel that i drifted so much from them. how i wish time would go back to where we enjoyed ourselves and where we were as close as one :(
im feeling so sick. kinda tired. i miss you, but seems like everything is like back. i just need you to understand me.

so many things came crashing down on me. maybe 2007 isnt a good year afterall :(

toodles <3

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i miss them :(
hai ...

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was listening to some songs. well the songs are actually kinda emo kind. and i got a little emo here and there. somehow i started to miss everyone ard me esp my clique (:

it seems like after everyone started working, we met up less often. even wad we called the most impt meeting date (8th) was somehow cancelled due to our hectic work. i miss all the times we had tgt as the 4 of us would go mad tgt, shopping like some crazy babes, laughing out very loudly and doing alot of stupid stuff tgt. those were the times that i really enjoyed with your. but ever since work came into each and every of our lives, everything between us drift apart. sometimes i feel that am i the one that has drifted so much from all of them? cause my work time is diff from them. & sometimes after work, i would head home straight cause i would be so tired.

i miss all the 3 of them. those were the days. i miss you guys badly :(

toodles people <3

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heyy everyone ! im back from being MIA for soooo long ! im here to appologise for being MIA for so long. and i know my dear readers do miss my post and me alot ya? :D

work today! so tiring. cause some stuff happened at work place and now everything is sorta settled la. i don't know also. i'll just pray and hope they will be fine from everything now. but if they still don't learnt their lessons then i shall forget bout worrying for them. due to this matter, i only slept for 3 hrs last nite and i went this morning! tsk tsk i just hope they will really change and learnt from their mistake. (: we do regard you as our dearest colleagues but when you did such stuff, you went away without a word. left all of us with a big doubt on mind. when the truth reveals, u didn't want to admit cause you wanted your pride and your reputation. im utterly disappointed in you as a friend. maybe you guys just don't learnt. =(

i worked till 3 today and jaslyn and pris came to find me! &&& thanks jaslyn thats really very very sweet of you (: we went to eat and we waited for may to come and we went walking ard at far east for my clothes. i need them for the dxo night. then we left to jaslyn's hse and chill out tgt. may left early and i stayed till 1o and i left. cause i was really tired.

im soooo in love with the song- irreplacable ! everyone just go and check this song out. its really nice. and whenever this song is play in our shop, everyone gets so high (: so people must check out this song ok? :D

irrplacable (:

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im lost and confused, part of my mind is in a mess and very confused. i don't wanna give up. cause i fought for so long, 8 mths and i shed much tears for it. i don't wanna give up just like that. i just hope you will know how i was feeling. maybe i don't wanna blog so often. just maybe a random post sometimes. shall see how my mood goes.

& i don't wanna give up (:

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went for a shopping spree ytd in town! i was so satisfied with myself cause i bought most of the things i wanted. and now i can strike off a few items in my wishlist (: went with mummy and we went tcc for high tea and we had so much fun taking pics in there. and my heels was killing me a little but i managed to bear with it thru thr whole day. i wanna go for more shopping please! &&& i loveeee my mummy! :DDD

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today is my most happiest day working! i went work at 930 and left at 3 when im supposed to be released frm work at 7! :DDD i just cant stop laughing =)))))))

this morning, housekeeping we were being scolded by Jeff. we all know all that he under alot of stress and so we try to cooperate with him (: then we had really very few customers today. and i guess our sales was really very lousy. so i worked worked worked till 2 plus and i told winnie that i will go for my break at 3pm then she was like okay. then Jeff asked me to replenish stocks.

winnie: LayChen u can go back at 3.
me: really?
winnie: yes
me: u kidding me?!
winnie: no *walks away*
me: * jumps and runs to juli like mad* hahas

yeah! and so me and juli went to eat crystal jade all treated by her. i promise to treat her back when i getr my pay (: then her gf came and we went far east cos she wanted to dye hair. so we went window shopping and settled down at gelare waffle for a drink. i was too full so i din buy any drink. while they had ice cream and drinks. i went to find eunice to tok. then her gf left and she went up the salon to dye hair.

she was so sad cos she dyed dark blue but the colour wasnt obvious. LOL and the person beside me even asked whether juli dyed black?! hahas GEI SI TA LE! well and si fei zhu texted me after which and i cabbed down to her hse. mun and kohs left by then :(

toodles people!
i love working (:

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i guess im too stressed up by many things that happened recently. my dark rings are appearing again. =( actually i don't know myself either .

just went vivo city with my family. surprisingly right? we rarely go out as one whole family cos my dad is busy with work everyday. went to have a walk cos by the time we reached there, most of the shops are closed alr. all thanks to my dearest daddy who wanted to watch his show and den we left the hse at 8pm! we still dropped by ah ma's hse and pass her things before we head to vivo. well i din get to go Candy Empire! i wanna get the candies in there!!!! =( damn, i shall go one fine day.

i hope i will be fine soon. im just so tired out by many things. all of my personal problems. my work life and love life. everything is kinda settled for my work stuff. i just hope nothing goes wrong for me anymore. im really too tired to face all the troubles im facing at work alr. hope things will really get better (: my love life aint any better. things are getting outta hand. and im tired to mention them. i jus hope things will be better also. a new year, everything shld haf a new start yupp? i hope my luck changes.

am i being over nervous? ever since the dream of me getting 33 pts for o's im now seriously worried. hard work pays off? thats wad people tell me. but now im really worried. i don't know la i just hope i don't fail. i wanna get into a poly. may god bless me (:

daddy is getting me a new handphone for my b'dae! muacks to daddy :D finally i can get a new phone. hope to get N73 lah. i like the phone and function or any other flip phone. (:

new yr, a brand new start and i just hope everything will have a nice and happy ending (:

dear god, if im a good girl
will u bless me and make my wish come true?
if u will, i promise i will be a good girl (:

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

sometimes when u really wan to treasure and cherish someone, the feel won't be the same anymore =(

much of wad happen in the past was my fault. i din learn how to treasure and cherish you. maybe i took you for granted and took our love for granted. everything i took for granted. we've been thru so many big & small quarrels tgt and nevertheless everytime we managed to make it up. i still rmb when u used to hug me real tight. the kind of feeling is definetely not everyone could get to feel. i love it when you hug me ard ur arms. after every quarrel, u wil always hug me that tight & i won't feel very blessed (:

everything changed for now. no more that kinda blessed hugs anymore. maybe it is karma that is happening to me. i wanted to cherish and treasure u so much at the moment. when i thought everything would be alright and when i thought i could tell u everything when u come back, i was wrong. i could feel that the special feel is somehow gone. im hurt and sad. i blame myself for not being able to cherish u more and took u for granted. all these were too late cos when i really love and cherish you, everything turned away frm me. i don't know how i could make things turn back for now. all i just need is one more moment to cherish u tightly in my arms. thats all i ask for you.

to you:
if you happen to read this, don't blame yourself cause everything from the start wasn't your fault but mine =( i just wanna tell u how much i love u.

sorry to my dear readers, be it my gfs or whoever, i will be MIA for a period of time. till then i will be back (:

sorry, i love you

&&; /Signed by Yours Truly.

booo! i was sick ytd and all the way till today =(

actually was supposed to work full shift but mattew changed it for me till morning shfit due to my personal problems. its getting ard the shop for that matter. well i don wanna mention it anymore or explain to anyone anymore cos i don see any need to for now. im sorry my dear colleagues but if ur happen to know wad happen, pls do me a favour by keeping it secret frm those who don't. the matter is spreading ard till im really stressed bout it. i hope bad things will faster go and good things will come (:

just slept my day thru cos was feeling kinda sick to do anything. hope by tmr im ok, cos im visiting si fei zhu cos she just got back frm phuket. and im having my off day tmr. &&& i need to bank in my cheaque so i can go shopping for my shoes and clothes! im running outta clothes alr.

school's starting for my junoirs, hope u guys enjoy schooling. (:

for me, life still goes on and everyday i will work. i jus hope that when results come out, everything will be fine. i dreamt that i got 33 points for o levels! im really very scare now. i just hope i can get a 19 or 18. i hope i don fail and i can go on to poly. since the dream, i felt so worried. :x

alrighty im off (:
toodles people!

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